I want to go through words to describe what I’m feeling right now, but I don’t know what they would be.

I’m probably not going to get to go to the concert of one of my favorite bands, and my Mom is currently blasting a DVD of the concert she went to recently for her favorite rock band.

Only I could get depressed over something so spoiled and stupid and selfish.

I’m trying not to be self-pitying right now, but my bipolar disorder isn’t making it easy for me.  I have this gnawing painful emptiness inside my chest and everything seems hopeless.  I feel trapped.

It just feels like nothing’s going right.  My best friend is in pain, I’m trapped in one place and strapped for money all the time…  I hate crying, but I really want to cry.